New Year Notes

What a year it has been!

A year of changes, some anticipated, some rude shocks, the crushing pain of losing someone loved, the learning to live without Paati,

The foreboding sense of distrust, going to bed wanting the sun not to rise on the morrow, waking up to fervently wish for the day to draw to a close, the desperate need to find peace of mind, the waves of relief at finally knowing there is someone to count on, the pouring out of the heart, the shock of being blind-sided, the frustration of having nowhere to go, the misery of solitude, the serenity in being alone, running away from the familiar, wishing things would change,

The growing warmth of a kindled light, the rising tide of happiness at finding a friend, the pleasant sensation of seeing a familiar face, the discovery of new friendships, settling into a comfortable rhythm, the buzz of the first sip of champagne, conversations filled with unbridled laughter, an evening with good friends, finding a reason to smile in a long time, the looking forward to a new day, welcoming the new season, the satisfaction of enjoying good food,

The contentment of preparing a meal, the bliss of solitude, incessant loud music, the bass seeming to pound inside you, the stomach churning fall of the rollercoaster, the taste of the first snowfall, the ritual of picking out a present, the flavours of brownies and ice cream, missing friends who are not around, the comfort on hearing a friend’s voice over the phone, being exhausted but happy, getting sentimental with people who matter, the joy of home cooked food,

The thrill of hearing Amma’s voice over the phone, the warm fuzz when Thatha is on video chat, the familiarity of meandering conversations with no purpose, the understanding that circumstances are ever-changing, developing a radar, knowing that someone is always there for you, getting a bear hug, making someone smile, spending a day with someone special, and building memories.

Memories that will last a lifetime, memories that have left scars, memories of times to be cherished and re-lived. Here’s to another year of memory-making.

Happy New Year!